The Return.

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ,

It has been a while since I have sat down and took the time to really reflect on God and the Catholic Faith. I have been going down the wrong path for quite some time now. I still don't have my life fixed, if we're being honest. But I deeply miss my roots.

I don't post because I feel so hypocritical. I don't want to come across as two different people. A faithful zealous one second and a hardened soul the next.

"Practice what you preach!"

I'm just going to speak while I can. Lord only knows how much longer we will have access to the Internet as well as the ability to speak freely. 

 Often times I feel so hollow inside. Full of sadness, remorse, pain, the list goes on. I keep trying to make myself happy and nothing works. 

I guess it doesn't help when you have constant negativity being shoved down your throat. 

Covid cases on the rise. Russia attacks Ukraine. Gas is soaring. Inflation. The overturn of Roe V Wade causing  negative protests. Let's have a moment of  selfishness for all that didn't factor in the life of the unborn. The unborn NEVER had a choice.  Why you so concerned about YOUR choice? 

With my mental struggles, I figure I'll never be happy.  So what's the point in trying?  I don't try as hard as I should. I don't push myself. I know I'm destined for more and I hold back simply because I'm afraid to fail. It's a vicious cycle. 

I could be running the show at my current job right now, but I'm not. Because I am afraid to fail.  

Lord grant me to grace to humbly accept failure in my life, and grant me the wisdom to learn from my error. 

In the silence....

In the midst of chaos...

In the midst of the "pandemic'..

 In the midst of the Ukrainian war...

In the midst of the changes on Roe V Wade...

In the midst of darkness...

In the midst of feeling alone...

In the midst of violence, sickness, and evil..

There is a beacon of light...

God remains. 

I wish to return to the arms of Christ. My safe haven 

“I was not yet in love, yet I loved to love... I sought what I might love, in love with loving.” “To fall in love with God is the greatest romance; to seek him the greatest adventure; to find him, the greatest human achievement.” “Right is right even if no one is doing it; wrong is wrong even if everyone is doing it.”